What-you-want-to-be

Come to think of it, I didn't and don't have any childhood ambition. Tinanong kasi ako ng 7-years-old kong pamangkin, "Kuya, ano bang gusto mong maging nong maliit ka pa?" I just answered her na "wala". Remembering hard and as far as possible, I really didn't have any wish to guide me on what to become in the future. No ambition to guide me on what path to take. No dream to become a doctor, a lawyer, an architect or anything in the future.

Even when I was about to enter college, I have no clear course to take. I never went to any entrance exam review, never did any college school hunting and never paid any attention to career symposiums. I just took my father's suggestion to take computer science in UST.

Fast forward into the present, eto na ako ngayon. Masaya naman ako rito sa workplace ko. No regrets and enjoying every moment of it. Napapaisip tuloy ako ngayon kung bakit nga ba wala akong "what-you-want-to-be" na dream nung bata.

Kasi naman 'tong pamangkin ko!!!!

Fighting Back

There comes a point in one's life where you really have to fight for what you believe in. Kahit na makalaban mo pa ang pamilya mo ay gagawin mo ito dahil alam mo na tama ka at nasa katwiran. Deep inside of me, I know that this point will eventually come, that I must, without any doubts and hesitations, step forward and fight back to them. I prayed that I can live this lifetime without ever facing this crossroad. But, last night, it finally revealed itself to me....

Calc: Sa pagkakataon pong ito ay hindi ko kayo masusunod. Alam kong mabuti ang mga intensyon nyo sa akin pero sana naman po ay pakinggan nyo naman ako.
Dad: Matagal na ako rito sa mundo kaya mas alam ko kung ano tama.
Calc: Noon ay pwede nyong gawin yan pero ngayon ay hindi na. Malaki na po ako.
Dad: Basta ang alam ko ay pwede itong word na "QWAZ".
Calc: Wala nga pong word na "QWAZ"!!! Kahit saang dictionary nyo tingnan ay wala po talagang "QWAZ".
Dad: O sya sige na nga. Panalo ka na sa scrabble.

Masakit pero kailangang ipaglaban ko na wala talagang "QWAZ".

Good Luck and Bad Luck

There is this belief within the gambling circle that the more often you win or lose, the more likely your luck will change on the next try. Halimbawa ay sa toss-coin. si player X ay tumataya sa head 10 times on a row. Ngayon sa pang-eleventh na toss-coin ay ginawa nyang tail ang taya nya kasi ang reasoning nya ay kanina pa sya head kaya malamang na maging tail yung kasunod. Ang tawag dito ay gambler's fallacy. Fallacy ito kasi kahit na 100 toss pa yan ay hindi naman nagbabago ang probability ng coin.

Ganito kasi ang thinking ng iba sa atin. Swerte, swerte, swerte, swerte, swerte. After ng hanay ng swerte ay iisipin naman na malas na ang kasunod kasi puro swerte na ang dumating sa atin. Kung iisipin, logical nga naman. May araw at may ulan, may summer at may winter, may tagsarap at may taghirap. Natural na dapat ay merong panahon ng swerte at may panahon ng malas. This, for us, is also a fallacy.

Having a good career is not luck but a product of hard work. Having good grades is not luck but a product of perseverance. Having a good lovelife is not luck but a product of commitment. Having a healthy lifestyle is not luck but a product of dedication.

Some people say that bad things happen to good people. Ang kontra ko naman dyan ay worst things happen to bad people. Part ng buhay ang mga pagsubok. Everybody has to face it one way or the other. Everyone who gives up will find a world full of bad luck and everyone who fights will have the good side of life. Death is not malas but a reality. It reminds us to cherish every moment because it will never come again. For what we leave behind is not as important as how we've lived.

Luck is just a human perception created by society. Walang swerte at malas nung panahon ng mga caveman. "Everything that can go wrong will go wrong" because everything that starts wrong will sometimes ends up wrong. Vice-versa rin naman yang "Murphy's law" na yan. "Everything that can go right will go right". In tagalog, "Lahat ng kumanan ay nasa kanan". Konting smile naman dyan....

So in short, what's your point?

No point. It's just disheartening for me to see good and brilliant people reducing their efforts and hard works to almost nothing and attributing their rewards to luck. Sayang naman, di ba? A "string of good luck" will never be followed by a "string of bad luck" unless one wants it to be.

Pasaway Moments

Officemate na nasamid: Number, number!!!
Calc: 1,345,239
Officemate: Hanggang 26 lang
Calc: -13
Officemate: Between 0 and 26!!
Calc: 7.68
Officemate: Whole Number!!!!
Calc: 17
Officemate: Anong letter yun?
Calc: Letter Q!!! Hahaha!!! Akala mo ha?!!
(pwede ring number 24, 25 at 26... hehehe!!!)

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Kakilalang ubos na ang load: Pashare a load naman?
Calc: Magkano?
Kakilala: Kahit magkano?
Calc: O ayan, nashare na kita. Hintayin mo na lang
Kakilala: WOW!!! Grabe, piso!!! Salamat ha!!!
Calc: Sabi mo kahit magkano!!!
(sana pwede ang 50 centavos)

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During a presentation...
Questioner: Can you explain how it works?
Calc: I don't know how but the important thing is it works!!!
(requires precision timing and mastery of moment to pull off)

-o-o-o-

After a long(as in 20 minutes) and technical(as in "super-purely" technical) speech made by a presentor during another meeting...
Calc: That was a very interesting explanation. In short, what do you mean?
(Again, requires timing to pull off successfully)

A Different Kind of Blog

In an effort to create a blog that is different from the usual blog I make, I, somehow, managed to come up with this post. Each word was carefully chosen, every idea was carefully molded and carefully connected in order to arrive on a post that is deeply profound yet easy to grasp. And without further delay, I present my blog for the week...

Ako ay may lobo
Lumipad sa langit
Di ko na nakita
Pumutok na pala
Sayang lang ang pera
Pambili ng lobo
Sa pagkain sana
Nabusog pa ako

I thank you!!!!

First Blog for 2005

Kapapasok palang ng taon ay wala na agad akong maisip na gawing blog. Kanina pa ako nakatingin sa monitor pero wala talaga akong maisip.

Bat di mo ikwento yung bagong taon mo?

Masyadong ordinaryo. Syempre kasama ko buong pamilya ko. Nagpaputok, kumain, tumalon tapos nagpaputok uli. Kahit na muntik na akong maputukan ay tuloy pa rin ang ligaya. Yun lang....

Eh yung mga naputukan ngayong 2005?

Ayaw ko rin nyan. Taun-taon na lang yan. Napanood ko nga sa MGB yung report nila. Parang sila rin yata yung naputukan nung 2004. Parang nakakasanay na ang makakita ng gutay-gutay na kamay, lapnos na mukha, umiiyak na bata dahil sa sakit at mga lasenggong natanggal ang kalasingan.

Yung mga biktima ng tsunami na lang kaya?

Yan sana kaya lang ano pa ang ilalagay ko. Nung magbasa ako ng blog ng iba, nasabi na nilang lahat. Wala ng itinira para sa akin.

Kwento mo kaya yung gagawin mo para sa Valentines?

Wala naman sa timing yan! Gusto ko medyo malapit sa New Year's.

Eh di yung New Year's Resolution mo?

Iisa lang naman ang resolution ko taun-taon. "I will not make a new year's resolution". Ano pa ang ieexplain ko dyan?

Gumawa ka na lang kaya ng tula?

Nagawa na ni chigo yan. Gusto ko medyo original ang first blog ko para sa 2005.

Bat naman kailangang original? Ang arte mo naman!!!!

Basta!!! Hwag ka ngang magulo at nag-iisip ako!!

Wala ka sanang maisip!!!